It's also this whole thing of how I felt last year not doing the marathon. I think I was in the best shape of my life. My upper body strength increased, speed definitely increased and I was testing my abilities on a weekly basis. I think I'm still in the phase of not knowing what I'm capable of and it makes me intrigued to continue to figure out my running abilities. I also miss running just for the sake of running. Perhaps one day I feel like running 8-10 miles but another I just feel like a loop of the reservoir. While it'd be disappointing to not achieve my goal that has been set for a long time, there's a lot of other goals to chase after besides the 26.2 one. I know there are many out there that will pull one way or the other but I think I'll know the final answer by the end of the week. I know my body will tell me what to do.
I guess I just need to figure out what's best for me. What is that? I guess I'll figure that out in the next few days. Until then, I'll continue to run along:-)